I Miss My Old Life...

Yeah, I'm gonna say the thing you're not supposed to say....I Mis My Old Life....You know...the Life Before Baby......

NOT That I would rather be without Little Miss MollY...because that is just NOT so! I love her with all my heart and soul, but I DO miss my old life! I miss going out to dance. I miss Todd and my's "Godfather" nights when we'd eat homemade Italian food and watch the Godfather trilogy all night! I miss getting to go wherever, whenever I please. Uhhhh...I miss taking a shower twice (or at least ONCE a day, anyway!!!!).

With a baby, life is just different. Period.

Today, without Molly to worry about, I watched my FAVE movie, Sex and The City, like, 3 times! It was AWESOME!!! So much like old times that I didn't even have to stay awake during the boring parts of the movie! LOL.. Really, though, on a more serious note: I kept thinking just how sweet Molly Piper is, how much I missed her, and how I missed New York. I continued to think how I'd missed out on this entire life of fashion week, a great writing career, a great apartment, for what I could afford; I thought about the clothes that I would have accumulated, the friends I would have made...and it just clicked...

My life, now, is with Todd and Molly. Molly is first and Todd is next. Molly is my heart of hearts, absolutely. Todd is the reason I get up in the morning, and Molly Piper follows with a close second...it's hard to tell...but still, they are BOTH the center of my world...even if I DO live in Oklahoma rather than New York City, as I'd always pictured....but the one thing I can never, EVER give up is the picture of the NY Public Library...the way Madison Avenue is all abuz at 5:00 PM...the cupcake shop, Magnolia Street Bakery.... and alllllllllll those great, wonderful, beautiful bookstores that specialize in hard-to-find books in print and publications long exhuausted on amazon.com....Alas, I will miss NYC forever, and I will miss the perfect part of me that longs for NYC and only NYC...